one year ago ...

i was 42 pounds heavier. explains why i have been so cold lately. looking at myself in the mirror, i still see the same rolls and flab, but my loose fitting clothes (thankgoodness for the shrinking power of dryers) tell a different story.this whole episode with my weight over the past year and a half has really made me reconsider body image. i've never been skinny. actually most of my life i have resembled a 2x4 more than a girl or a woman. maybe never having a perfect phenotype made excessive weight gain a little easier to deal with psychologically. or maybe contentness with all other faucets of my life negated the extra weight. or maybe i am telling myself i was okay with it when actually i wasn't. my last two relationships in the past 5 years have been when i am 'skinny' compared to my norm. so either i look a million more times attractive when i am minus the extra pounds, or i am only comfortable with other people finding me attractive when i'm skinnier. i am afraid the latter might be true.

Anyone I know had pink eye recently?

My left eye and my right elbow are both very red and itchy. That coupled with the head cold and other problem that is not appropriate to discuss publically makes me really want to crawl up back in bed. But no, I will plug on. A morning in Excel seems like a good solution. Oh yeah, I can't seem to get my blogroller working properly.

dilemma

so my attempts to re-establish myself as a ‘good’ Christian by re-joining an old small group and are being challenge by abc’s decision to move grey’s anatomy to thursday night. my other personal conviction that is being challenged by abc’s switch is the ‘no tv in sally’s house’. so … is anyone planning on taping every episode this fall?